Baby Steps...

This past weekend was quite an expirence. It started out with a picnic. My "Rope Guy" that I am crazy about showed up about an hour later then me. I was really excited to see him. It had been two weeks, and quite honestly, I really REALLY missed him. It made my heart jump a bit when I saw his car pulling around and saw him get out. Gosh....I think I am turning into a high school girl again.

He immediatly came over and greeted me and touched me. This is something I really love about him. We always have our hands on each other. It's almost like his touch sends an energy thought my body that gives me strength. Whatever it is, it is intense.

We ate lunch, and chatted with friends. Afterward, waterguns were pulled out, and for me, that was my que to exit.....lol. I had a few blankets in my truck, and asked Rope Guy if he wanted to go lay in the shade. He asked me if I was going to join him......HMMMMM let me think? lol.....Ummm yes.

We situated ourselves under a shade tree, next to a creek. He sighed.....and said this is not as bad as it seems....my heart dropped, and I was really scared. At this point people started to ask him permission to talk to me, to play with me etc....and I was really worried that it might be getting to him....since he has pretty much been a confirmed bachelor for awhile.

He wanted to "define" what we were. Wow.....ummmm and my response to this was....well.....GOSH.......

I asked him what he wanted, he asked what I wanted. It was short and simple. Probably a little to short and simple, but that is okay. For us, baby steps seem to be our speed, and for two people that have been hurt before, I am okay with that.

Doing something continued (still not done....)

So I said I would talk more about this guy that shares this rope thing with me. I scened with him often, and my gut kept telling me to take things a step further. But...thats hard for someone that is NEVER forward. EVER with men. PERIOD. Okay...now that is established, what can I do to get closer to this man that I majorly am crushing on? Well, I go to a rope convention that he is going to. Simple enough, right? Oh God.....it was so not simple.

I got there Friday and rested until that evening. I was walking around the common area, and spotted him with another couple. I walked over to say hello. He wasn't expecting to see me until Sunday.....I told him my plans changed and I decided to come to the whole thing. He was getting ready to suspend the woman from the couple that he was hanging around with for the first time. He asked me if I wanted to get in line.......you don't have to ask me twice......

I sat and watched him work, showing her partner how to tie and knot this woman into beautiful hip and chest harnesses. All of a sudden, she was in flight.....and it was breath-taking. There is something so spiritual about rope. Its hard to put into words, but just sitting there on the carpet watching, it surrounded me.....engoulfed me....and quite literally took my breath away.

They finished their scene, and it was my turn. Little did I know.....this would be the most intense scene I have ever expirenced in my life. He stood behind me, and soft hemp touched my body. The smell sourounded me, and at that point, it was simply Him, me, and this magic rope that seemed to be stitching my very being back together. I don't really remember the process.....only the moment I started to fly. When he tied off the ropes, and situated himself under me, rocking me back and forth gentely, I was in another place.....someplace with no worry, no stress.......just peace and serenity. I have never floated like this before, and I couldn't talk......he knew exactly when I needed to come down....and when he let me down, I kneeled there, on the carpet, in a ball.......he held me, and something came over me.......I still honestly do not know what is was, but the feeling was almost magical.

First Public Self Suspension...

Here is an image from my first public self suspension. It was really intense....and ended up leading to self inversion.....which I will post a picture of once I block out my face in it. I had a really great time doing this in public, and the responses that I got from the people that were watching were amazing. More pics of this night will come once they are edited.......