Do something already.....

This new rope fetish has been a real big journey for me. Not only for me....but a journey of finding a connection with someone.

I have been in the middle of a termoil. For the last few months, I have been hanging out with a guy that is really cool on the weekends at a dungeon that we both frequent. What can I say about this man.........he quite literally gets under my skin. He makes me catch my breath when he walks into the room, and he has really good energy. The kicker you ask? I have never had a conversation with this man. Not really at least. We talk here and there before we scene (which I might add this man is the shit at scenes.....I haven't got this hot scening....well.....ever.)

So, I am feeling all warm and fuzzy over this guy, and he acts like he has the hots for a friend of mine herein shall be refered to as Blondie. Cuz, well.....she is both mentally and in real life. Dammit....she is a nice person, and has been nothing but kind to me, but she gives me a bad feeling. I guess when you know about someones background you tend to judge them, and when they are getting what you want.......well.....kind reader....you know how us girls are. We are jealous bitches. And how do jealous bitches handle each other? They act like they are best friends. Damn we women are fickle as fuck.

Its hard to watch them together. It must be puppy love or something, because we haven't really talked much. I don't honestly know what it is about this man that really makes me attracted to him. Sometimes you just have to listen to your guy instinct and heart. And mine tells me to do something about it.......