My body, my heart...

My appology to all....I have spent far to long away from my blog.

Last week (March 5-13) I spent in Westchester with Ashlee. I was really looking forward to spending some one on one time with her without William, but I was very excited to be able to see William too.

Well....the week went bad. Very bad. My heart is broke, and here I sit with a pile that I need to try to stitch back together. Sunday night after I got there, Ashlee and I got into a little arguement. Stupid really, but it set William off. He ended up leaving after bitching at both of us.

The next day, the truth comes out. In a conversation Ashlee had with William, he told her that "She is not up to my level"......"I never was attacted to her body, or her sexually...i was just with her because I felt sorry for her." And the kicker......."I can't deal with being with someone that is bald."

Those fateful words.....here was a man that I put on a pedestal, and 5 months later, it crumbles to the ground. I am hurting a lot right now. I feel really used and ugly....even though I know it is him that is shallow. I knew that my hair (or lack there of) was going to haunt me again soon...I was just to nieve to see it was right in front of my face.